Tough Day

Tonight I'm not sure where to begin.

My day started out pretty shitty. First thing this morning I received a phonecall from my boss about the whole snow drift ordeal over the weekend. Turns out this thing got snowballed out so bad (pardon the pun) that our office has now been black-balled because of it. And guess who gets to be blamed for the whole thing? Yeah...that would be me. That's the last time I try help out around that effing office. Next time, I think I'll just break my neck and then sue their asses.

I am also still feeling like crap, health wise. This damn flu seems to want to hang on for dear life. While I don't feel nearly as ill as I did last week, I just can't seem to get my energy back, and my poor little ol' nose makes me look like I should be related to Rudolph. I'll be so glad when I can shake this thing.

The weather where I'm at sucks. Below zero temperatures, mixed with icy winds and more snow is making Lady Lover a dull & disgruntled girl. Ugh.

On top of all this little nit-picky shit, there are much more serious issues going around here. For starters, my Grandma is not doing well. I am in serious need of making a trip to visit my family, because Grandma keeps asking for me, and the way my family is talking, she may not see 2009.

Grandma is 93 years old. For years I have joked around with her that she is like the "energizer bunny"...She just keeps "going, and going, and going", but I think her battery is running out. For about a year now I have been bracing myself for the inevitable, but its tough being strong, even though I know and understand the circle of life. No one likes to think their Grandma is anything but immortal. My Grandma and I have a very special relationship. I am planning a trip to visit her in about 6 weeks, but its tearing me up knowing this may be the last time I see her.

In the process of planning this trip, there is even more bad news. Hubby's mother has cancer. She has been fighting cancer for about 15 years now. She has dealt with skin cancer, breast cancer, ovarian and cervical cancer, and now she has lung cancer. She has fought hard battling this horrible disease, but she too is running out of energy. The chemo and radiation have taken their toll on her, and now sadly we must make a trip to see her as well, because they don't think she will make it another six months.

I don't have a good relationship with my in-laws. In short, they don't like me - they never have. One day I'm sure I will blog about that. Right now it seems pety considering Hubby's mother is not doing well, but I am having a difficult time maintaining a positive attitude for Hubby's sake. Anyway...

Now that things have gotten worse with both Hubby's mom and my Grandma, we will be making a trip to visit both of them in April.

In the midst of all of this, I am trying to find something to smile about. I got a call from Lil' Pistol today about taking a road trip to Oklahoma City. She tells me that she would like to make this trip in about a month. Eeee-gads! I could REALLY use a trip to my beloved Texas right now, and OKC is only two hours away from there - but with everything else going on, I just don't know if I can take the trip that soon. I thought we were going to wait until the end of April. The worst of it is that she wants to make the trip down and back in 6 days. That means we only get 4 days down there, because it's a 20 hour drive one way, which means two of those six days will be needed for driving, and the day we leave I actually have to work, so we can't even leave until after 4 p.m. Technically that means we'll only have three and half days. *sighs* But I am so desperate for some time down south, that I have agreed to make this trip with her. Good thing there will be two of us driving - bum deal that we won't get to spend a weekend down there. It is strictly a Monday through Friday trip.

My head is swimming right now. I need some sleep. Nighty-night.

xoxo