Riding the Wave of Life

It feels like it has been eons since I wrote my last post. Life has been throwing me one thing after another lately on the home front.

For starters, I have to share with you that concussions are really no fun. :( I think the next time someone says to me, "Knock yourself out!" I'm going to tell them, "been there, done that, and it wasn't all it was 'cracked' up to be!" LOL! I now have a permanent dent in my forehead. No shit. I went to my hairdresser today for a color and cut and she said she could see it. That's just plain ol' depressing that I now have a lifetime reminder of a really stupid moment. At least I can laugh at it. :) Anyway...

For the last month I have been dealing with getting over my head trauma, being hit with the flu in a really bad way (which, by the way, just doesn't seem to want to go away), getting tested for STD's, doing my taxes, cleaning my house, and preparing for a trip to Texas next week. I've been a very busy girl. ... Wait. Lets back up a little bit. Did she say, "Getting tested for STD's"??? Yes, "she" said that.

So, I've been thinking lately...I'm not exactly "Miss Sweet & Innocent" here. If truth be told, when Hubby calls me his "Bad Girl", he really means it - lol! Over the years I have had my fair share of extra-curricular activities. *blushes* About 7 or 8 years ago I got tested for HIV, just to be on the safe side. Since then, I have had a few extra playmates. Mind you, I am totally into safe-sex, but as they say, "shit happens".

If you are reading my blog, then you know over the past few months I have been on kissing sprees and flirting up a storm, which has also lead to two new playmates. One of them was Trucker, and the other was Biker Dude. Those are both stories I have yet to share with you, and I will eventually, but for now - suffice it to say, the whole playmate scenerio cropping up in my life again got me to thinking...safe sex doesn't just mean using condoms. In my mind, safe sex also means being responsible and getting yourself tested, so that's what I did. With my sex life picking up speed, so to speak, I wanted to make sure that what I brought to the table was good clean fun, so I asked my doctor to run the full gammit of STD tests. For the last two weeks I have been on pins and needles waiting for these test results. It's weird, because I didn't really think I had any problems, but just the thought of the possibility had me going crazy. I got my results back today, and I am happy to report that all tests were negative. Thank the Goddess!! As the saying goes, "Better to be safe than sorry", and now I feel like I have been given a clean slate. What gets written on the slate in the future is yet another story for yet another day, but for now a clean slate feels great!

Now, I don't mean to preach or sound like your mother, but have you seen what an STD can do to your body?? That's some scary shit! The low-risk STD's can be cured with antibiotics if caught at an early stage (the operative words being "caught at an early stage", because if you don't catch them early they can cause permanent damage), but the more serious ones can create problems for a lifetime or even kill you. The problem with STD's is that they can be had for a while before you even realize you have them, which is what makes testing so important. So here's Lady Lover's Wisdom of the Day: If you are not in a monogamous relationship (with one partner exclusively), please make it habit of getting yourself tested on a regular basis. Lady Lover loves you and wants you to be happy and healthy. :) Thanks for listening. xoxo

On a more happy note, I also got my business taxes done today, which is an amazing feat in my life over the last month. I can't stand doing taxes - let alone business taxes, and dealing with the flu in the process had been a challenge to say the least, but I refuse to pay someone else to do them because I know how, so I do them myself. It's quite the pain in the butt, but they are finished, so I am a happy camper. :)

Even better, I am leaving next Monday to go to Texas for a visit, and I believe it is safe to say that I am beyond excited about it! It has been almost a year and a half since I've seen my beautiful Water Slut & her sexy Mr. Waterslut, in addition to all my other wonderful Texas friends, so I am totally psyched that I get to spend some time with them over the next few weeks. I already know it is going to be hard to leave Texas again when it's time to return to Hubby, but I'm willing to deal with the heartache because I miss everyone so much. A little time is better than no time at all, right? Besides, if all works out, then I'll be moving back down there permanently in about 6 months, so that thought keeps me going. In the meantime, after the crappy winter we have had, I am in major need of a Texas-fix, so that's why I am using my vacation time for this trip. (WS, I hope you're ready, Baby! Won't be long now! hehe)

I do have to admit there is one thing about this trip that is making me really nervous though, and that is getting to see Sexy Man after all this time. Our relationship never really had any closure, so I have no idea what to expect where he is concerned. On the one hand, I am really looking forward to seeing him. I have missed him something awful, and the thought of getting to spend time with him again makes me really happy. On the other hand, one of the reasons I planned this trip was to tell him we need closure. But now that I find myself less than a week from seeing him again, I don't know if I'll be able to handle any kind of closure with him. I still love him beyond words, so seeing him again after a year and half could be dangerous. *sighs* But at this point, all I know is that I need to see him again, regardless of the outcome, so I've decided that I am going to see him without having any expectations. I'll take it a day at a time, and whatever happens, I'll just have to deal with it as it comes up. Although, that doesn't manage to kill the butterflies in my stomach over seeing him again. *she sighs again* One day at a time, Lady Lover. One day at a time.

Well, I believe I have pretty much caught you up on my latest and greatest. Okay, so maybe it wasn't all that great, but I have a feeling my next post or two will be much more exciting. :) I'm looking forward to sharing my Texas adventures with you!