More Changes

Late last night I decided my blog needed a face lift, so I decided to use a different template. :) Just one more thing to change in my life, lol.

I don't really know what to talk about tonight. Today was fairly uneventful. I had a bad headache earlier today, so I didn't accomplish much, unless you count taking a 4 hour nap. Then Hubby and I met K downtown for dinner, because he wanted some company. Of course, while we were with him, all we heard about was what's going on with him because of the DUI. So far there really isn't any new news - mostly it's all "maybe" this, or "maybe" that.

While we were downtown, I made an appointment for next week to get my hair permed. I am trying to do positive things in my life to make me feel better, so I have decided to change my hair too. I haven't had a perm in over three years - ever since I cut off all my hair. Now that my hair has finally grown back out and is long again, I have decided it needs some life in it, because right now it's just feeling long and stringy. Ah, well, hopefully a perm will help.

Tomorrow is the big day. At least, it's supposed to be. I need to call the pharmacy tomorrow to see if my prescription has been filled for my nicotine patches. I hope they are ready. I'm down to my last pack of smokes, so tomorrow really would be ideal. Although I have to admit, I'm really nervous about quitting. I am still trying to tell myself it's time, and giving myself pep-talks to keep myself motivated about it. I can do this, right? Right!

I keep thinking about my dad when he quit smoking years ago. I remember it well. One day we were sitting in the living room, and my dad had a cigarette in his hand. He looked at my mom and said, "I'm done." He put out the cigarette, and never picked up another one. Go, Dad! The only problem is that he ended up using a lot of unhealthy substitutions, like candies and other foods to help him get over it, and afterwards, he didn't stop with the unhealthy eating . It became a new way of life for him. Now Dad is a diabetic, and it's kicking his butt.

That's what scares me about quitting. I don't want to end up like my dad - severely overweight, and dealing with diabetes. On the flip side, if I keep smoking, I could end up like my mother with the emphysema. I need to take a whole new approach to my efforts. Lots and lots of water to flush out my system, and lots of healthy carrot & celery sticks! I keep trying to think of things I can do to keep my hands busy too. Like working on my crafts and what not. They say excercise is good too if you start getting cravings, like taking walks. I think, maybe, if I start feeling ansy and need a smoke, maybe I'll just grab Hubby for a good romp! hehe That would be exercise, right? And it's highly unlikely that Hubby would complain. ;)

Well, that's about it for tonight, I guess. I can't really think of much else to talk about. I'll let you know how tomorrow goes.

Nighty-night - xoxo