To Blog, Or Not To Blog?

That is the question.

I'm excited right now. I have been pretty sick with the flu this past week. It's Friday, and this is the first day since Monday that I have been out of bed, except to get something to drink and to use the bathroom. I don't think I've ever been this sick with the flu. I don't know if it's my age, or if this really was just a nasty, NASTY bugger, but I'm feeling a bit of life creeping back into my spirit today. YaY! Sadly, Hubby is down with the flu now as well. He's about 24 hours behind me with symptoms, and it's kicking his butt just as bad as it did mine. I feel bad for him, because I know how he's feeling. Hopefully he'll follow suit and be feeling a little better in the next day or two. I'm just glad I'm starting to feel better. I really couldn't afford to take time off work, and I have to work tomorrow. Anyway, that's not what I'm excited about, LOL...

I'm excited, because I turned on my 'puter this morning and logged in to blog to discover that Mrs. WS is back! Not only is she back, but she brought Mr. WS with her! YAYYYY!

Let me explain - while many of you are familiar with Mr & Mrs WS, whether through this blogging site or elsewhere, they just happen to be my two closest and dearest personal friends in the world! I can say, with all sincerity, they probably know me even better than my own husband does, which is sad, but true. I never have to worry about what I say or do around them. I never have to hide my feelings, or hold back what I'm about. I can vent to them, share my secrets with them, party like a rock star with them, lol, be goofy with them, and I can be the real me when I'm around them, without ever worrying about what they will think of me. How many people can you really say that about in your life?

Don't get me wrong. The relationship I have with my husband is similar. He is my best friend, after all. I can tell him just about anything, but even with him I feel like I have to hold back sometimes. It shouldn't be that way, right? Well, it's unfortunate, but that's how it is. For instance, when I go out to party, if I'm with Hubby, I usually have to hold back my wild child within. Hubby really doesn't have a wild side. He's one of the reserved type. He likes to sit and watch the world go by, while I like to dance, socialize, flirt, and all around party up a storm. I would say I can drink with the best of 'em, and when I start drinking I loosen up, A LOT! You know the saying, "Girls just want to have fun!" That's me, to a "T", but I always feel hesitant to "let it all out" when Hubby's around. Part of it might be tinges of guilt, because I feel like I'm having a good time and he's not. Or it might be that I feel he holds me back. I don't know. All I can say is that you would understand if you saw us out together.

Just as an example, last Friday night Hubby and I went to the watering hole and met up with some of the guys he works with. Since I had to work the next morning, I decided to be DD for the night and let Hubby cut loose and be the drunk for the night - lol! Even sober, I was having fun. But while Hubby was doing the drinking, all he did was sit there for the most part. He did come out and dance with me twice - woohoo! But even then, he was very low key. About half way through the night, one of the guys came up to me and said, "They were right." I asked him what he meant, and he said, "They told me you were a lot of fun to party with, but [Hubby] just sits there." I wasn't sure what to say on Hubby's behalf, so I just told him, "I like to have fun when I go out." What else could I say without making Hubby sound like the Grinch, lol.

It makes me sad sometimes, that I can't just go out with Hubby and be the same party girl I am when I am out without him. The irony is that when I go out alone, the next day I fill Hubby in on everything that I was up to the night before. He never seems to have a problem with it, regardless of what "it" is, so I don't know why I have such a hard time being that same person when he's with me. There's just something different in the air when we are out together. I suppose I could look at it on the positive side and say, at least when we are out together he keeps me out of trouble, lol - but just once I'd like to go out and have a good time with him, as opposed to having fun while he just sits there. The man needs to loosen up. *sighs* Anyway...

It's moments like that when I feel grateful to have friends like Mr & Mrs WS. While we don't get to party or hang out together too much these days, because of the miles between us, it makes me feel good when I think about them and good times we do share. When I go out alone on my ladies night's, I often think to myself, "it's okay to be myself and cut loose and have a good time. Someone out there understands." *HUGS to Mr & Mrs WS*

Okay, so enough of that sentimental stuff, lol...

I had to laugh this morning when I logged on to blog. When I checked in with Mrs. WS's page, the first thing I see is this "Content Warning". OMG! I'm shaking my finger at the "tattle-tales" out there. Someone actually had the audacity to turn her in for "objectionable content"! Are you kidding me??? Hey! If you can't take the heat, stay out of the frickin' kitchen!! No one told you that you had to read her blog, and in case you missed it, this is a free world! And there is a hell-of-a-lot worse stuff posted on the internet than anything Mrs. WS posts! It's called LIFE folks, and just because you're a prude doesn't mean the whole world leads a boring life! You only wish you had half the charisma she's got!!

I, for one, LOVE reading Mrs. WS's posts. For starters, I get to check in with her page to see what she's been up to. *wink-wink* I think we tend to keep in touch this way, too. I love reading her daily antics when she has time to share them - it makes me feel more connected with my friend. And now that Mr. WS is posting too, I get to feel more connected with him as well! Yay for friends!

As for me, well... I was losing faith in the whole blogging thing. I was starting to feel like I was alone in blogger-land, because no one ever comments on what I write. It's no fun when you feel like you are talking to yourself. Although, there are times when blogging makes me feel better, just because I need an outlet to express myself, even if no one is reading them.

You see, as far as I know, Hubby doesn't know that I have this blog. I for one would like to keep it that way. This is the one place I can express myself about my life and my feelings, without worrying about hurting his feelings, or being concerned that what I share might have consequences. Here is where I feel I can be the most honest about what I've been up to, or vent about anything and everything, without worrying whether or not someone is going to be judgemental. Of course, there is always going to be someone out there who feels they have the right to judge, but to them I say, look to your own house. If you don't "approve" then move along, because I could care less what you think.

So...the question was, "To blog, or not to blog?" I am currently motivated by Mr & Mrs WS's recent activity, so I think I'll keep blogging. It may never be as exciting as some other "objectionable content", LMAO - but hey, it's all about keeping it Real.

xoxo