I need a break!! Just when I think life might be looking up, I get this really crummy news today. 6 weeks ago I had surgery in the pelvic region, which included an incision within the vaginal canal. Today I had my follow-up appointment, and I was all set to hear "all is well". Instead, I hear "F*#k!" coming from between my legs as the Doctor is examining me. No joke.
Okay, so, I'm an open-minded person. I hear the "F" word used all the time. I even use it occasionally myself, so when I hear it, it usually doesn't phase me. Today, however, it threw me for a loop! It's not something one is accustomed to hearing in a doctor's office - particularly from the doctor while he is in the middle of a pelvic exam! Lucky for the Doc, he's from my hometown, and I like him. Otherwise I would have had a real problem with it.
It turns out the incision in the vaginal canal hasn't healed properly, which means I am going to have to have surgery again to fix it, and apparently the doc was none too happy about it. F*#K!!! I'm none too happy about it either! This is going to be my third surgery in less than six months! I am starting to feel like a science project!
At the end of June this year I had shoulder surgery. I spent three months recovering from that, and I'm actually STILL trying to heal from it. Then at the end of September, I had this other surgery. I was just finally starting to feel better, and could actually get around and start doing things that required some physical exertion. Now I have to go through it all again. This really sucks! Not only do I have to have this third surgery while Hubby is away for six weeks, but it means I will have to prolong having sex again for another six weeks too. Not to mention that I have go through the healing process yet again, which is a bitch all on its own.
Like life can't get anymore depressing!
After the bad news today I decided the rest of the day was going to be spent having some "pamper me" time. I think I deserve it, don't you? Yes, I'd say I definitely deserve it, so I went out after my doctors appointment and took myself to lunch, got my hair colored and cut, got my nails done, and had a pedicure too. Yay for me! I haven't done that in a while, and I have to say, DAMN, THAT FELT GREAT! Then I even took myself out to dinner just to put the finishing touches on my day. :)
Now I am bee-u-ti-ful, but pooped! lol Time for bed - have to work in the morning. Nighty-night!
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I was SO SAD to hear how your appt went-I know that had to be a major setback. PLEASE know I'm here for you-I may not text or call as much as I used to but I'm still thinking of you. I LOVED the post about your discovering the joys of the margarita-I believe I've been telling you that for years. hehe. If you do it again, let me know-we'll do it together so that way you're not drinking alone. *grinning*
I love you sweetie!
Thanks, Girlfriend! I am so not prepared to have another surgery. *pouts* But I need to get this one done a.s.a.p. because of the whole open wound thing. I just wish Hubby was going to be here with me. I really don't want to go through this alone. As it is, I have to find a ride back and forth from the hospital.
As for the margaritas, well, I'm learning. ;) ~hehe~ Feel free to join me any night that I don't have to work the next day. I don't like working with a hangover,lol - but I am definitely enjoying them on my days off. Maybe it's time I become a lush, eh? I don't seem to have much else in my life right now.
Love you too & miss you lots! *hugs*
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